It's this blissful agony I'm scared I'll miss
Apathetically forgetting what you did to remind me of this
August, school is almost in session
Which twenty-six letters did you use to break her heart?
The writing is on the walls I'll learn through repetition
Thankful that even the nights fade away
It's hard to grow while I'm tripping on the family roots
And you leave us to
The hands in a god that you see is just
Oh but that silver lining above your head
(I'll burn that bridge, when I get to it)
Is out of reach
(Watch it crumble like the ash off a cigarette)
I'll forgive you when you're saved
From the two scarred eyes painted on your mask
(Now your hands are stained with my blood)
Your beauty is betrayed by the bottle
They taught us what love meant today
But I forgot that counting holes in the walls
(Forgive me for calling this a murder)
Our tight ends are frayed
She pretends she doesn't see me
Like a moth eaten family quilt
I don't think she wants to see me
Relinquished relations
Oh God I hope she sees me
I still feel fine
I am begging for her stare
Don't turn your back on me
Just because I'm forgetting how to breathe
So I pretend to be
Intending forever
A million smiles and a million lies
Obtrusive thoughts of violence are peaking through my blinders on the third floor
(This effort won't last forever)
The downstairs neighbors aggressively stab at their ceiling
(I said that I had relied on the sound)
Our battleground is a play without satire
This display is far from comical
It's a torturous repetition
(Of your voice)
Of knocking, screaming, acceptance, and helplessness
(Cutting through the air)
I wish the weekends were seven days long, so I won't see betrayal again
(And she looked back and stared)
Oh god, oh god, oh god
(And she looked back and stared)
Is everyone this dysfunctional?
I wished I had an answer
But some choose silence over admittance
(She replied with a silence)
I wished someone would admit that
(Unlike anything I've ever heard)
I wished somebody would fucking tell me
But instead all I get is misery without context
(Unlike anything I've ever heard)
Keeps me up trying to find the words to describe
(Unlike anything I have heard)
My broken heart that's repeatedly shattered then mended together with lies
Lies, lies, a million fucking lies
If their truths were alive, they'd hide like animals in a storm now we're drowning and praying for our right to breathe
Just give me a stare
I am waiting for your god-like stare
I'm truly just frightened by the thought
Yet I continue to surrender myself
So I pretend to be
Intending forever
A million smiles and a million lies
A million fucking lies
Who would've thought you'd come here
Floating around on the fallback
Masquerading innocence and preparedness
Funny how this timing sets us off
My drives never ended so late
(Upholstery, smoke)
Your silhouette in her place
(It pulls me close)
Silently shifting your gaze
(Dark brown, wooden walls)
Thinking of something to say
Well just say it
(They all sleep on top of red)
Say it
Say what you mean
(They all sleep on top of red)
Say it
Savour the day
That we stay
In our place
Just like sheep
(Just a cowardly example)
But I'll see
The unknown
(Just a cowardly example)
Under violet light
Just a cowardly example
The rain runs down on the window
Take one more breath then take me home
How many angels can sit at the end of the needle
That pierces through the fabric of everything that I had once held
In my life as a sadist, staring into my damaged reflection while
All my impurities better found in the flip script
Stay right here
She said in a crackling cadence with her wide-eyed, ten mile stare
Return to how I had met you
Is one of her favorite delusional sayings repeated with less conviction upon my calm nerves
Keep ringing the ghost line
Too bad it's going through
(The needle pierces)
The tone in your voice says I
(Into my heart)
Should've left a message for you
A vacant mind with room to hold more than just small angels
In a delicate display of bone and blood and skin
And a face that smiles whenever it deems appropriate
To act as free as a ship alone in the Pacific waving a white flag
In my dreams
I have the chance to let fate happen instead of believing I had the choice to make a change
Someone else steer me to
The great wall of water created by a power more meaningful than me
I tried to speak these words
I had scrawled on this page
(The needle pierces)
But in this static delay
(Into my skull)
We're nothing more than a charade
Forever empty, forever sinking
Can you hear me drowning?
Forever drowning in endless ocean
I'm drowning you out
I'll never forget
That glare in her emerald eyes
She's seething at the mouth
I see her lips move;
Reveal a smile that I'm not used to
When I'm equipped with your weapons
I'll find the courage to speak
The room folds in on itself
Like the heart of a wolf
Tactfully dancing around confrontation
It's what we take to the grave
Carefully constructed from broken pieces
Wear your heart on your sleeve
This forever summer over
And the arrival of an autumn
Excites the pain of a fleeting joy
Followed by the sun
Like shadows on the asphalt
The only thing that walked us home
It's what we take to the grave
That sets us apart from one another
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